It's Been A While

So, I haven't written here in quite a while. Why? Let's see...

I started and finished Nanowrimo. I was more excited about the story this time that I've been in a long time, and that's an awesome feeling.

I'm heading up the team at work for the Shape Up San Francisco walking challenge. That means not only that I have to do all the team-leader stuff (leading group walks, sending out regular encouraging words, etc.), but I actually have to participate. I have to finish up walking 300 miles in 10 weeks. Not terribly difficult, but it's been very challenging this past week.

It's the time of year at work when I launch the year-end website. Of course that process started months ago, but it's always at the last possible second that everything has to happen. There's a ton of testing, the stuff that everyone left to the last second to create or approve or deploy, the stuff that still hasn't happened that we're waiting for. At this time of year, I end up having to hire a contractor who calls me all hours of the day and night (just ask some of my friends what happens when you call me last on a weekend night).

The hardest thing isn't the contractor or the walking challenge or even writing a novel. The hardest thing is that I still have the most important obligations before me - I still have a husband and children animals and a house to maintain. Mostly, I love all the stuff I get to be part of in having a spouse and kids and animals, but honesly, during November I find myself resenting them.

I resent the fact that they have the temerity to ask me to spend time with them; I resent the clothes they wear because it means more laundry I won't have time to get to; I resent the food they eat, because I've either cooked it or I'll have to wash up after. Sometimes I think that what I want for Christmas is a gift that comes a month early - to be able to have a housekeeper who cooks for the entire month of November. I'll never have that kind of money.

But I can dream...